Some people are blessed with a very clear vision of who they are and what they wish to experience and accomplish in their lifetimes. From my own experience, they are the exception as opposed to the rule, with most folks having a relatively fuzzy sense of who they are, where they are going, and why. The latter is not necessarily a bad thing, though it can end up in a lot of going in circles if one doesn't pop one's head up from time to time to query on goals and progress.
Over the last few months I've been experimenting with sitting quietly every morning, feeling gratitude for what I have created, what I am creating and what I have yet to create, and then asking for guidance on things I need to do or pay attention to during the course of the day. At the end of the day, I take time to sit in gratitude again, reflecting on how the day has unfolded, and then focus on bringing further questions or intentions into my dream time.
As I engage with these practices of gratitude and intention, I often feel like a toddler who is just learning to crawl or walk. Despite being simple, staying consistent with these practices is a humbling undertaking to say the least, as there's a part of the ego or persona that really doesn't want to change and will find all kinds of backdoors and reasons not to engage. But I'm tenacious and becoming proud of my ability to be consistent. To make things even better, every once in a while I get glimpses of the power of this kind of practice, whether through the direct speed of physical manifestation of intentions, or visceral experiences of what feels like my body "re-wiring" itself to be more powerful, connected and whole. These are always golden affirming moments.
Perhaps the biggest thing I am learning through this kind of daily practice is trusting that I only need to know the actual step I am working on as opposed to every step right through to the end point, and that my best ally is my intuitive sense of what I need to do while staying aware of emerging (and sometimes surprising and unexpected) opportunities that support the creative process at hand. In many ways it's about learning to live in the mystery of creation, breathing it in and being fully present with it, and giving up the need to force or push or manipulate things towards certain outcomes. Indeed, there is a real felt sense that by aligning my will with the larger forces of co-creation, the outcomes will be that much grander and more satisfying.
Interestingly, in adjusting to this new way of living and engaging with my life, I'm finding that stress has all but disappeared, and I'm developing a real appreciation for the powerful creative forces unleashed through the consistent practice of intuition, intention, prayer, and gratitude.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Putting the Knives in the Drawer
The Law of Attraction first danced across my scape back in 2006 when my big sister introduced me to "The Secret". I'm not ashamed to say that by half way into the movie I was struggling to stay awake, feeling somewhat unsettled by some of the things it was saying and presenting. Suffice to say it was not "attracting" me at the time.
Fast forward to the beginning of 2011 and another conversation with my sister that touched on the laws of attraction and manifesting prosperity. Having reached a crux point in my own life in terms of health and wealth, it was clear that my current matrix of beliefs and patterns were not producing the results I was looking for, so I was definitely open to something new. I decided to purchase the Laws of Attraction and Money, the Vortex, and the Power as audiobooks, and soon found myself listening - intently and deeply - to what they had to say. The "a'ha's" came pouring forth, and I soon found myself leaping onto a whole new trapeze of viewing and playing.
One of the biggest "a'ha's" was around cleaning up any patterns of negative thinking, self-importance, judging others or myself. This "house-cleaning" is what I now teasingly refer to as "putting my knives back into the drawer, where they will stay unless absolutely required." The foundational premise for doing this is that "like attracts like", so if I am unconsciously entertaining myself (or just filling the blank spaces) with any kind of negative or unproductive inner dialogue, I am very likely attracting that kind of energy into my life on some level. No thanks, I say, no more straying unconsciously into mental realms of cutting and paring, as this serves no one, least of all myself.
Consequently I have become aware of just how quickly "cutting" thoughts can fly across my radar, originating from a highly patterned source (after all, I have been practicing for many, many years). As a result I am now developing some skill in catching these volleys in mid-flight - at times diving for them, and other times leaping high into the air - and am taking the time to crack them open to scoop the gold inside.
As an example, an old acquaintance recently surfaced in my life, someone who has, in the past, caused me a fair amount of irritation. When his name flashed across my computer screen, my first instinct was to recoil and think "oh no, NOT him again!" Then I got out my catcher's mitt, grabbed the volley, and with the help of a good friend took some time to sit with the question of "why does this individual irritate me so much?". In a matter of minutes we were able to laser in on this turnaround phrase, which put me in a place of gratitude instead of irritation: "thank you for the gift of mirroring my own tendency to self importance".
My friend and I had a good laugh about it, and I now know that this individual will no longer trigger any sense of irritation in me - indeed, on some level he has been teaching me something all along, albeit it wasn't penetrating. Now I know that it took me putting my knives into the drawer to be able to receive and understand what that was.
Fast forward to the beginning of 2011 and another conversation with my sister that touched on the laws of attraction and manifesting prosperity. Having reached a crux point in my own life in terms of health and wealth, it was clear that my current matrix of beliefs and patterns were not producing the results I was looking for, so I was definitely open to something new. I decided to purchase the Laws of Attraction and Money, the Vortex, and the Power as audiobooks, and soon found myself listening - intently and deeply - to what they had to say. The "a'ha's" came pouring forth, and I soon found myself leaping onto a whole new trapeze of viewing and playing.
One of the biggest "a'ha's" was around cleaning up any patterns of negative thinking, self-importance, judging others or myself. This "house-cleaning" is what I now teasingly refer to as "putting my knives back into the drawer, where they will stay unless absolutely required." The foundational premise for doing this is that "like attracts like", so if I am unconsciously entertaining myself (or just filling the blank spaces) with any kind of negative or unproductive inner dialogue, I am very likely attracting that kind of energy into my life on some level. No thanks, I say, no more straying unconsciously into mental realms of cutting and paring, as this serves no one, least of all myself.
Consequently I have become aware of just how quickly "cutting" thoughts can fly across my radar, originating from a highly patterned source (after all, I have been practicing for many, many years). As a result I am now developing some skill in catching these volleys in mid-flight - at times diving for them, and other times leaping high into the air - and am taking the time to crack them open to scoop the gold inside.
As an example, an old acquaintance recently surfaced in my life, someone who has, in the past, caused me a fair amount of irritation. When his name flashed across my computer screen, my first instinct was to recoil and think "oh no, NOT him again!" Then I got out my catcher's mitt, grabbed the volley, and with the help of a good friend took some time to sit with the question of "why does this individual irritate me so much?". In a matter of minutes we were able to laser in on this turnaround phrase, which put me in a place of gratitude instead of irritation: "thank you for the gift of mirroring my own tendency to self importance".
My friend and I had a good laugh about it, and I now know that this individual will no longer trigger any sense of irritation in me - indeed, on some level he has been teaching me something all along, albeit it wasn't penetrating. Now I know that it took me putting my knives into the drawer to be able to receive and understand what that was.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
To Move is to Live, To Live is to Move
This particular March morning happened to be one of those fabulous bluebird weekend mornings that affirms, in no uncertain terms, why we locals get giddy about our good fortune of living in Kimberley. Hefting my cross-country skis on my shoulder, I decided to catch some early tracks and spectacular views of the Rockies at our local nordic centre (http://www.kimberleynordic.org).
Finding an easy rhythm on the well-groomed trails, it was easy to let my mind wander a web of trails through its own unique landscape. Recovering as I am from some major surgery in January, matters of health and wellness, mind-body connection and attunement are often front of mind these days, and this morning was no exception.
In the time leading up to diagnosis of cancer and subsequent surgery to remove it, my acupuncturist had often observed in me conditions known in Traditional Chinese Medicine as "stagnant liver", "stagnant blood" and "spleen qi deficiency". It is interesting how sometimes we don't really understand what we have had in terms of "dis-eases" and imbalances until we have gotten past them and are able to look back with the greater clarity and consciousness gained through successful navigation of the "healing crisis."
As I was rounding a gentle uphill bend in the trails, full of joy and gratitude for being able to ski with such ease again, I reflected back on my life prior to the diagnosis and realized that it had been, in fact, "stuck" and "stagnant" in many ways - perhaps most importantly with respect to my own self concepts, sense of limitations, and ideas of what I am here to create. Life was comfortable, but just barely. Imagination was wanting. Vision was near-sighted at best - indeed, I was loathe to examine the long term implications of my core beliefs, values and trajectory of the day. My metaphorical "fire" was small in a stingy sort of way, and the woodpile was being closely rationed just in case there was to be a shortage.
Yikes, I say, as I look back on this last chapter with the realization that I had unconsciously allowed myself to fall into a rather dark chasm of scarcity and lack of self-belief. Definitely not going back there again!
It was then, as I was reflecting on the past months and thoroughly enjoying the full-body movement and aesthetic of cross-country skiing in these beautiful mountains, that the words dropped into my head "to move is to live, and to live is to move." I now know that there is no place for stagnation of any kind in my life anymore. We are indeed here to live, to move, to learn, to create, to explore, to discover, to sense, to find what gives us knowledge and pleasure.....all the while knowing that this is a moving target as we grow, change and evolve....which means getting out of one's comfort zone fairly regularly.
So the real challenge, it would seem, is to keep up with and meet the evolutionary demand that the "higher self" is continually making upon one - gently beckoning us to discover just how big and expansive we really are (yet capable of wielding an attention-grabbing 2 x 4 if we insist on burying our head in the sand). This is where both grace and courage would seem to be essential qualities. Ho!
Finding an easy rhythm on the well-groomed trails, it was easy to let my mind wander a web of trails through its own unique landscape. Recovering as I am from some major surgery in January, matters of health and wellness, mind-body connection and attunement are often front of mind these days, and this morning was no exception.
In the time leading up to diagnosis of cancer and subsequent surgery to remove it, my acupuncturist had often observed in me conditions known in Traditional Chinese Medicine as "stagnant liver", "stagnant blood" and "spleen qi deficiency". It is interesting how sometimes we don't really understand what we have had in terms of "dis-eases" and imbalances until we have gotten past them and are able to look back with the greater clarity and consciousness gained through successful navigation of the "healing crisis."
As I was rounding a gentle uphill bend in the trails, full of joy and gratitude for being able to ski with such ease again, I reflected back on my life prior to the diagnosis and realized that it had been, in fact, "stuck" and "stagnant" in many ways - perhaps most importantly with respect to my own self concepts, sense of limitations, and ideas of what I am here to create. Life was comfortable, but just barely. Imagination was wanting. Vision was near-sighted at best - indeed, I was loathe to examine the long term implications of my core beliefs, values and trajectory of the day. My metaphorical "fire" was small in a stingy sort of way, and the woodpile was being closely rationed just in case there was to be a shortage.
Yikes, I say, as I look back on this last chapter with the realization that I had unconsciously allowed myself to fall into a rather dark chasm of scarcity and lack of self-belief. Definitely not going back there again!
It was then, as I was reflecting on the past months and thoroughly enjoying the full-body movement and aesthetic of cross-country skiing in these beautiful mountains, that the words dropped into my head "to move is to live, and to live is to move." I now know that there is no place for stagnation of any kind in my life anymore. We are indeed here to live, to move, to learn, to create, to explore, to discover, to sense, to find what gives us knowledge and pleasure.....all the while knowing that this is a moving target as we grow, change and evolve....which means getting out of one's comfort zone fairly regularly.
So the real challenge, it would seem, is to keep up with and meet the evolutionary demand that the "higher self" is continually making upon one - gently beckoning us to discover just how big and expansive we really are (yet capable of wielding an attention-grabbing 2 x 4 if we insist on burying our head in the sand). This is where both grace and courage would seem to be essential qualities. Ho!
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Nature Speaks, Nature Heals
Several years ago I had the good fortune to study Ecopsychology through Project Nature Connect (http://www.ecopsych.com), learning first hand how we humans and nature can communicate with one another on sensory levels in ways that can restore well-being, balance and connection inside of us.
The core principle is very simple: when outdoors and/or in nature, allow yourself to open your senses to the environment around you; via one or more of your 53 senses, you will soon find yourself drawn or attracted to something: perhaps a particular tree, flower, scent, feeling of the wind on your skin, a bird or bug or spider's web, a dew drop or a gleaming body of water, a particular cloud or the way the clouds are moving across the sky or the shadows they are creating on the land...it can be just about anything.
What matters is that your attention has been attracted to something via your senses and you are giving yourself permission to follow this gentle impulse and explore what has attracted you, all the while asking yourself questions like "what sense (or combination of senses) attracted me to "this", why is this particular thing attractive to me, how does it make me feel, how might it connect with something that is going on in my life/consciousness right now, what can it teach me in terms of finding better balance and connection inside of myself, etc."
Often times I will go for a walk or hike and start to follow and explore what I am naturally attracted to, allowing myself to use my senses to learn and become intimate with whatever that might be, in a way that respects and honours boundaries at the same time. I am always amazed by the wise answers, reflections, and "a'ha's" nature provides on things I am working through for myself. My gratitude goes to Michael Cohen for openly sharing this teaching with the world.
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